Everything & Nothing [POETRY]

by: Jessica Bonifacio 

I can no longer tell night from day,

A blur of colors, of time ticking, sand falling

down and rising up and up and up,

And the grains vanishing, and reappearing -

Devoid of sense, without physics.

I watch seconds turn into hours and retreat

Into the mindless joy of non-existence existence,

What it would feel for everything to stop

For a moment.

I lay and feel the numbness, I try to catch

The running thoughts, hold them still, 

Try to squeeze them, know them, bury them,

Is this better than nothingness?